I’m here. Stuck in this place where I’m afraid to make a mistake.
It drives me crazy.
I’m not allowed to touch anything. What if I break it?
I’m not allowed to play. I might make a mess of things.
I’m not allowed to explore. I might get lost and not be able to find my way back.
It’s no fun. There’s nothing to do, but nothing.
What am I talking about? This painting.
My daughter and I began to work on it during our season of slow. I like what we’ve done so far. And I know what I want to do next. But something always stops me from starting on the next step—the fear of making a mistake, the fear of messing it all up.
Do you ever feel this with your art? Your writing? Your life? Do you ever find yourself stuck in one place, afraid of making a mistake?
The irony is… most of what I love about this painting is the unplanned and unintended parts, the mistakes so to speak. So I guess I should stop stalling, get out the burnt umber, and start defining the twigs and branches of this bird’s nest.
How about you? What’s the next step you’re going to take?
Good news! A painting of mine has been selected for use in a calendar. I’ll let you know the details once the contract is finalized 🙂
New grains of sand: 8,285
Current status: 49,096
I’m going to write this novel. Word by word.
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